The Girl in December

Back in December when The Girl was gone for a whole month and we were still dating, we fell into this habit of texting each other pretty constantly. It got to a point where we even texted each other before going to bed to say goodnight. Then she came back in January and decided it was too much .

I've come to realize in the months that followed that what we had was neither a NSA relationship, or a friendship or an actual relationship; it was a combination of those 3, that evolved into some amazing moments shared once a week. We were not accountable to each other, we were not monogamous, we were not best friends. It probably would never have been this complicated, if it wasn't because of that feeling that makes us come back for more.

Even now, as I date other people, as she sleeps with whoever she wants to sleep with; in different countries, cities, etc. We still talk, and we still share, the same way we always did.

In the last couple of days we've talked a bit; about me and how I'm adjusting to this place, about us, about her and her life over there, her issues with A.G. Its one of those never-ending conversations.

But today, she shed light on something I'd been wondering about for months. Her behavior in december, how close she got, to then push me completely away. She said it was two things, the first one, that she missed me because she didn't get to see me as often; the second one that she knows I couldn't ask that much of her over text/chat/email.

But thats as far as the conversation got, because she had to go somewhere. I'm waiting on seeing how it finishes.

Either way, I'm kinda happy to know the missing part wasn't, and isn't, one sided.